Patience vs Me

So hi guys! :) Thanks for reading my pathetic blog last time! lol I have new stuff for today...and your right it deals with patience and my lack of it. haha. so i love movies and you all know that but i dont tend to take advice from them...usually. however, a long while back i saw "Evan Almighty", not a great movie but it was cute! anyways there was this one part in the movie where Evan's wife was getting frustrated with her husbands antics and she just didnt know what to do and the next thing you know "God" - morgan freeman - is sitting next to her and he is talking to her and what he says to her, which i am about to share with you guys, really makes sense and i feel like i can apply it to how i am feeling right now in this moment. he says to her:

"Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?"

Boy do i feel like god is giving me A LOT of opportunities to be patient lately. there have been so many things going on in my life right now that range from money to boys to school its just all requires soo much waiting. waiting to see if i get a loan, waiting to see if this guys likes me, waiting to see if i get in the summer classes i need, just waiting and being patient and its so hard cause im a fixer. to me all these things im waiting on are all little problems of their own and i want to fix them and until they are fixed i am a nervous, stressed out wreck on the inside. anyways all i know is that i believe in GOD and i believe that i have asked HIM enough times for patience and HE is finally giving me the opportunity to use it, so i am just going to have to be strong, very very strong and keep my chin up i suppose! right? i guess i need to stop wasting all of my strength on trying to fix these things that i know i CANT fix and use that strength for patience, right? hmm well i am going to leave my "avid" readers with the lyrics from one of my favorite songs...

Jack Johnson
All At Once

All at once,
The world can overwhelm me
There's almost nothin' that you could tell me
That could ease my mind

Which way will you run
When it's always all around you
And the feelin' lost and found you again
A feelin' that we have no control
Around the sun
Some say
There's gonna be the new hell
Some say
It's still too early to tell
Some say
It really ain't no myth at all

Keep askin' ourselves are we really
Strong enough
There's so many things that we got
Too proud of
We're too proud of
We're too proud of

I wanna take the preconceived
Out from underneath your feet
We could shake it off
Instead we'll plant some seeds
We'll watch em' as they grow
And with each new beat
From your heart the roots grow deeper
The branches will they reach for what
Nobody really knows
But underneath it all
Theres this heart all alone

What about is gone
And it really won't be so long
Sometimes it feels like a heart is no place to be singin' from at all

Theres a world we've never seen
Theres still hope between the dreams
The weight of it all
Could blow away with a breeze
If your waiting on the wind
Don't forget to breathe
Cause as the darkness gets deeper
We'll be sinkin as we reach for love
At least somethin we could hold
But I'll reach to you from where time just cant go

What about is gone
And it really wont be so long
Sometimes it feels like a heart is no place to be singin' from at all